March 21, 2010

• NEEDTOBREATHE kind of week..

  Hello.

  How’s it going? I’ve had a good week. CRAZY but good. Exactly one week ago today I saw my FAVORITE band in the whole of the Christian music world- Needtobreathe. It was a concert i’ve been waiting to see for 3 years and it was worth the wait.

  

  

  

  

  Not only was it one of the best concerts i’ve been to.. it was one of the best nights of my life. I can’t explain what happened. The bonding between my sweet friend Jessica.. Jennifer and I was amazing. The laughs.. the talks.. the smiles. Hearing a song live can also make you better understand the singer/songwriter is trying to tell you. They sing a song called “The Outsiders” here.. let me educate you.. not all of the lyrics.. but a few lines worth looking at closer.. sooo yah.
  
  Shortfalls of little sins
  
  Close calls and no one wins
  
  Stand tall but running thin
  I’m wearing thin
  
  
  Oh, why are we keeping score?
  
  Cause if you’re not laughing,
  
  Who is laughing now?
  
  I’ve been wondering
  
  If we stop sinking
  
  Could we stand our ground?
  
  And through everything we’ve learned
  
  We’ve finally come to terms,
  
  We are the outsiders.
  
  
  

  sooo yah. Outsider.. Webster defines Outsider as a person not belonging to a particular group.. and a contender not expected to win. interesting huh? when you read the lyrics.. and define the word. So as I listened to the lyrics.. As I really took a good look at my life.. i realized something. I’m a total outsider. I do not conform to “secular” “worldy” ways.. NOR do i conform to the sterotypical “christian” ways. While I was living in England, I had a few people tell me.. “you’re not like what we thought american christian girls are” and when I asked them to tell me what they though american christian girls are like.. they sold me a image of Mandy Moore in A Walk to Remember. Kacki skirts, cardigans.. no make up.. no piercings.. NO tattoos.. she does not drink, nor smoke. she does not curse and definatly does not flirt with boys.. basically a cookie cutter christian. I had to laugh. and then I had to help them understand that I was not your “sterotypical” christian girl. I have opinons. I think for myself. I like tattoos and piercings and having a beer on a friday night listening to some great live music. When I told them I used to be a bartender.. they about fell out of their chair. And that’s when it occured to me. I’m an outsider to the religious too! AND I should be! Jesus doesn’t want me to be RELIGIOUS. He doesn’t want me to adheir to rules and customs b/c it’s what demanded of me. God wants me to love Him. and LOVE his people. God wants me to be REAL. RAW. He doesn’t want me to conform to please him. I-

  sorry. off the soapbox.
  anyway, sooo I got my tattoo

   

  It’s pretty i think.. And to pay tribute to my boy’s Needtobreathe, I have a red outline of the “O”.

  anyway- so thats my new tattoo story

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